irish.lemon

as ironic as it may seem, i find it exceedingly difficult to write about myself. i know i do it here all the time, but this is where i vent my frustrations and inadequacies. rarely do i stroke my own ego. i’ve never taken compliments well. one of the last things casey told me when i stopped in last week was that i know what i’m capable of, i just need the confidence. i still can’t explain why i lack so much of it…

that very reason is just one of many that exemplifies my need for academic preoccupation…i think too much about stupid things. i finally got the email i’ve been waiting for and now i can’t figure out what to write. i already know i’ll be sending back a document nothing short of a novel. such is the nature of the beast…i’m a pretty wordy beast. am i fretting over nothing? absolutely, i am.

i’m not humble, i’m self-loathing…for a million different reasons. so we’ll see how well i do at this survey…